They Said the Human Heart is not Infinite

They Said the Human Heart is not Infinite

February 25, 2016

I heard someone say the human heart is not infinite. That its ability to love another--to know, to be known, to attach fearfully--is beyond our control. They said I can give my heart an opportunity to create intimacy with another, but only opportunity, again, and again. They said hearts will not let themselves be given away, no matter how strong my wish. They said we don't find ourselves within the souls of others through the power of choice. No. Instead, they say we dance, posture, wonder, and hope a great gravity may form, found thudding in another, in us for another, and that into each others souls we may fall. But we cannot create gravity, we cannot willfully love.

They said this had to do, somehow, with sin... that this was the way humanity broke. We try, and we give opportunity; but we don't create love, and so we can't give it away. It comes from somewhere else. They said we may create kindness… graciousness and peace may infinitely flow out—that these we may create and freely give to others. But not the love of one's heart, not the depth of one's soul; not this pinnacle gift. It must give itself away.

And I said, Here lies terror—as a soul asks for presence, for the pinnacle gift of another. Terror, though asked from the purest of human souls.